I am so miserable. Why must you do this to me? We were so close just a few weeks before, and now we are acting like we have just known each other for 3 days. Fine, I am jealous that people around me are having a good time with the people they love. But I m not even asking or forcing you to do things with me which couple do. What I ask from you is purely from the stand of a FRIEND. Is that too much?

Can you please stop doing this? Acting as if we are the best of male-female friends and then ignoring me. I don't know what you are thinking, and I really wish I do. The only sensible reason I can come up with is that the bothe of us are taking turns to have mood swings. But I should be the only one having PMS. You can't have that, can you?

Please, it hurts, so stop. If you really think you will never ever feel something for me in this lifetime, could you just tell me straight in the face so that I can cry the whole house down and try to get over you as soon as I can? If, in 1 out of a million chances that it may be possible between us, could you do something? I beg you.

Something has changed, but I don't know what. Is it me? Why are we not talking as much, not as crazy before? All I know is, he sucked lots of your emotions out of you. You are almost like a puppet, your every emotion, your mood is all controlled by him. This shouldn't be when you like a person!

I am not sure how I was like before, maybe the same as you now, I don't know. But this is wrong. This is damn wrong. I don't know what to do now, given you don't tell me stuff anymore and I can't extend a helping hand even if I want to.

Please don't do this to me. Don't get so close to me and treat me like your soul mate and then just chuck me aside when you decided that you have enough of me. I can't take anymore of this shit. Before I die from heartbreak caused by dearest bread, I think I will die of grief from the loss of you first.

Please, can we go back to what we were?

Why? Why? Why?

Why are you so cold towards me? Why are you ignoring my messages? It doesn't hurt that bad if that's because you are tired. But now the thing is, you can't be bothered. Why?! So your new-found friend deserves your attention more than I do?

No, I am not being possessive. I am nobody to you anyway. You didn't wish me Happy Birthday. A stranger could do that on fb so why can't you? Fine. Forget it. Maybe you were busy. And now you don't reply my messages. It's alright. Perhaps you were too tired to notice. But hell no! You could still find time and energy to have fun with your new found friend.

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY. AM I THAT INSIGNIFICANT???? WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?????

Oh god, I really want to hate you but I can't. Because it's not your fault.

I shall let go of everything. i will forget that we were once inseparable best buds, and we quarrelled over nothing. i will treat u like i've never seen u before, as if u were the new student frm another sch. i will not be close to u, so that u will never have a chance to hurt me again.

I will even forget that we were once friends. I promise.

Ok, sorry ppl, typo error in the prev post. " I was unwilling to open the door not because I'm not..." Pls take note of the changes. Thanks.

Maybe it's just fate that we were never meant to be. Maybe I shouldn't have gone out with u in the first place. Hurting myself by watching you with another girl...

Oh, shut up and get on with life.

Firstly, I would like to apologise for being so seemingly rude today. I wasn't unwilling to open the door because I'm not supposed to be your friend or what. Because I do not approve of staying in classrooms during recess and it's not allowed. We have been warned, and disciplinary actions will be taken. Let's just say it's for my own good, your own good and the class own good.

Say what you like,
Think you like,
Scold what you like.
I don't care,
Because my conscience is clear.
At least I don't fake,
Just to fit in.

Yeah, today was my first recess spent alone. The first in history in Zhonghua. Nevermind.

Tagged along Cindy today. Feltlike a burden. Anyway thanks Cindy for her advice.

One thing funny about me: I am happy when people send me messages or reply my tags. Well, i m not people-oriented, so think it's normal.

Note that there are no links nor tagboard. Well ppl if u r kind enough for wanting to leave a comment, pls tag it at the other side:
the-depressedseries.blogspot.com

Thanks.