I shall let go of everything. i will forget that we were once inseparable best buds, and we quarrelled over nothing. i will treat u like i've never seen u before, as if u were the new student frm another sch. i will not be close to u, so that u will never have a chance to hurt me again.

I will even forget that we were once friends. I promise.

Ok, sorry ppl, typo error in the prev post. " I was unwilling to open the door not because I'm not..." Pls take note of the changes. Thanks.

Maybe it's just fate that we were never meant to be. Maybe I shouldn't have gone out with u in the first place. Hurting myself by watching you with another girl...

Oh, shut up and get on with life.

Firstly, I would like to apologise for being so seemingly rude today. I wasn't unwilling to open the door because I'm not supposed to be your friend or what. Because I do not approve of staying in classrooms during recess and it's not allowed. We have been warned, and disciplinary actions will be taken. Let's just say it's for my own good, your own good and the class own good.

Say what you like,
Think you like,
Scold what you like.
I don't care,
Because my conscience is clear.
At least I don't fake,
Just to fit in.

Yeah, today was my first recess spent alone. The first in history in Zhonghua. Nevermind.

Tagged along Cindy today. Feltlike a burden. Anyway thanks Cindy for her advice.

One thing funny about me: I am happy when people send me messages or reply my tags. Well, i m not people-oriented, so think it's normal.

Note that there are no links nor tagboard. Well ppl if u r kind enough for wanting to leave a comment, pls tag it at the other side:
the-depressedseries.blogspot.com

Thanks.

Right. I screwed up everything. Big time.

I've changed. She has changed. Everyone has changed. Things have changed. People are always saying that there many changes in lfe. They never say how to deal with it.

It's been a long time since she has spoken to me. It will be a 'they' soon. I hope this day will never come.

I seem to be on bad terms with everyone. Even the most annoying person hates me now. I know how she felt being left out by everyone and all, since i am experiencing it now.

My relationship with my parents had greatly deteriorated. My father actually flared up at me for offering him a piece of chocolate. I mean, come on, what's wrong? what's wrong with being kind?

My bond that i once shared with my brother is getting thinner. I find myself quarrelling with him over little things that didn't mattered.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Err. created this blog to kind of 'express' my real feelings about some stuff in my heart. coz no one knows me here and i wont hear anything i don't like to.

Well, i seriously face some social problems that have never been existed. I don't know its source and what caused it. It just somehow surfaced silently.

We were best of friends. We knew each other since we were Primary 4. we practically did everything together. We could read each other's mind. We were closer than anyone else. but we just drifted apart.

Well, maybe it was just me, i don't know.

It happened before. Last year we had a really big fight. We didn't talk to each other for about 2 months. It was the worst part of my life.

I am glad that it was over. But i'm afraid it would happen again.

She no longer laugh at my jokes. She scoffs at my idea. She is annoyed when we used my idea. She doesn't talk to me anymore. She no longer beg me to go Macs with her anymore. She totally cut me out of her life.

Sorry for hurting you.(If i ever did). Sorry for making you wait outside like a fool. Sorry for having you to put up with me all day. Sorry for being a bitch. Sorry for being your friend.

I already did what i could to make it up to you. Why can't you just give me a chance? At least tell me what i did wrong. At least let me change. I came early when you told me to. I reached school before 0630am. You appeared near 0700. Twice. Twice you stood me up. I never complained. I never grumbled. I brought the book you asked me to. I helped you with your maths and drew the graph for you like you instructed me to. I did everything. Just what do you want from me? Is it that difficult just to be your friend?



She took more than she's supposed to. She ate more than she's supposed to.

She took what was mine.